and now im wondering....

im feeling terribly anxious at the moment.
i dont know what it is.
its not like my usual 'oh woe is me' type of anxious moment.
its more like i shouldnt be here.i need to be in san francisco, feeling lonely and riding the shady ass BART.

i got a new bed today! its this mezzanine, its not the best but its good enough for now and i got it for like 70 $ with the mattress. not a bad deal!
now all i need is a desk and im fucking set, thats all i'll need for when i finally move out into a studio apartment.
oh i am so fucking determined. i just need a job first!!! i need to get my septum ring changed to. (in case i dont remember what im talking about. or if anyone is reading this randomly.) right now i have in an actual ring with a ball. i forgot what its called, not important. but in order to turn it up, i need a freaking horseshoe. fuckity fuck!

i've been doing reading up the ass it's ridiculous. for the past 4 days i have been reading for my american history class. and i have philosophy, astronomy and film also to read for. my, my. it seems like i wasnt doing this much reading back when i was going to cal state east bay.


p.s. video of the wonderful ben folds singing the song that Amanda Palmer lip-synced to at her FIRST SOLO CONCERT EVER!