marlboro reds

i bought a pack of cigarettes.
marlboro reds. this was a stupid idea.
i cant stop smoking them. theyre disgusting but i fucking love it. i love them with food. with coffee. with music. i like smoking them while smoking herb. i like smoking them when im thinking. i like smoking before i sleep.

i found this beautiful photo of brenda from valentine's day.
we got really drunk off a bottle of vodka and some tequila and laughed our asses off.
i lit incense and brenda couldnt take the smoke and ran to the bathroom.
i took pictures and this is what happened.

my dreams have been beautifully heartbreaking.
i think thats the main reason i put off sleeping so well.
i hate sleeping because it leads to the dreams.
and the dreams are why im in this mess.
if i didnt have such a sad sad dreams maybe there wouldnt be these feelings.

im sincerly yours,
piale