sharpen my body like a pen

i feel fucking weird.
im getting sick again.
fuck. fuck. fuck.
lets just not hope its as serious as i think it is.

i fell in love today with a business man today. he is a terrible angel with tattoos painted on his bare shoulders.
bathing in his stupidity with such beautifully sad eyes.
when his hands opened to me, smoke coughed out of my lungs. and thats all i need to love this man sincerely.
today i fell in love with a bad bad man.
say you like it. say you need it,
when you dont.

"raphael, you know just how to take me in the swimming pool like a child being baptized." -cocorosie

last night made me just want to dance forever.
i want to constantly be moving to sound.
to thoughts. to love. to youth.