i feel my face sinking in. my collarbones stick out more and more.
i eat like a scavenger. piece of bread there, some carrots there. a rice cake here.
i hardly sleep. when i do i have nightmares and the 'sleep paralysis'.


maybe im having some sort of thoughts where in them day dreams are hallucinations. time doesnt exist in this zombie-state. im stuck in the past while in the present already knowing the future.
I AM SO FUCKING CONFUSED!

my emotions are ocean waves.
there are so many games we are all playing.


where are you sunny days?
heaven knows how much i miss you...

yours, piale